Thoughts

While the title is technically a dated reference by now, I thought I might as well revive this post. This post was intended to be a summary of all my memories of 2019 and some New Year's Resolution at the beginning of the year. But since we're almost halfway through the year, I thought to give an updated perspective on the post that it could have been. Here are a handful of things that had happened last year, although I mostly remembered things that happened in the later half. 1. Internship: doing daily reflections, my colleagues, the actual work I did, and my final presentation 2. Hans Staying over for 3 months: going home together every day, staying up till 3.30 am to play mahjong, him joining me in choir 3. Mission Trip to Battambang : doing spiritual prep and facil training, the gala dinner, and the trip itself Other things that happened: - My school Catholic community celebrating my birthday lmao: I remember being asked if I was coming for campus mass, since my b...

Over the past few days, I was mulling over a cover letter I submitted for a job that I desperately hoped for, a job that I thought perfectly suited me and was what I wanted to do as a career. But as I thought more about what I had written, and how, cringy it all felt, I started to regret what I had written. I was so unsettled by it, because of how contrived it felt, like I was just pandering to what employers might be looking for. I focused on was trying to come up with "examples" of my skills, which in hindsight, feel like they're pretty inconsequential and doesn't translate into much. I was trying to show that I had made something meaningful and impactful, something to demonstrate my skills, but at the same time, it felt so, disingenuous, and I think really naive. I thought that just like anything I have made, there will be good pieces and bad ones, and this was just a case of a bad one. Or maybe it was my fault for not asking for a second opinion earlier from a car...